today i submitted my application to cambridge. this was very scary and difficult and i'm proud of myself for doing it. really i don't think i've wanted anything in my life as badly as i want to be a cambridge ASNC -- so the hardest part of the application process was really just getting up the courage to turn it in. but i did -- and then i watched The Sun God and the Changer cook in my kitchen and ate scraps they tossed at me while i sat on the floor and drew pictures. The Sun God gave me mushrooms and bok choy and eggs for dinner.
there's nothing else to say about today...actually, we bought a apricot brandy at the grocery store and it was disgusting. and we made an ins and outs list for january:
ins: women our own age, EDM,pooping regularly
outs: speaking to whores, luigi mangione, someone describing an internet post to you and then trying to show it to you
that really is all. i love you everyone. i am cozy in bed under 4 quilts with my prayer candles burning, my kirtan playlist on, blot completed, and a peppermint lip mask protecting my lips from my cold cold room. goodnight.